don't ya hate it when that happens?
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
TODAY
hmmmm, this past weekend was soooo..... unproductive! i spent so much money, some validated, but others more like.... doo doo doo. yeah. well i hit up fry's, costco, michael's, old navy, longs, walgreens, and.. and.. yeah ain't that enough for you?!?!? the only store i missed i think was target ;) besides that i did nothing, ya hear? nothing!!! i wish i did something but i kept waking up too late. i mean laaaaaaate. today was just one of those days where everything's just blah, bleh... i woke up, missed an appointment (i hate that feeling!) and rushed through math hw that was due at 3. in english, prof dickey was back today, but unfortunately his lecture on elegies and eulogies had bored a few too many people and they scampered away at various times throughout the period. i have to admit, i was struggling a bit.. to keep my eyes open... i don't know why.. probably the long weekend. after going through office hours for math hw, i made a dash for my overlapping class of mgmt and got my reeeeeally poor midterm back. poor, poor, midterm. c'mon say it with me now. ....alas, i have shamed my father, i shall have to avenge myself with the last midterm. i'm thinking about getting my masters in education to go into teaching... i'm not sure b/c they want people who are commited to traditionally underserved schools... and i'm not totally sure about what i want to do... still looks like actuaries, but ::sigh:: i don't necessarily have to stay here for the rest of the year, but i crave certain things... i want to keep working out the way i do, i want to participate in wac dance classes (belly dancing and wacsmash among others...), i want to take at least one more art class, and i want to take this terrific afro-cuban drumming teacher at least once..... i also want to get into thrash jazz and hiphop..... all this good stuff and no one to share it with? ::sigh:: i wish i could still talk to this certain person in my life who disappeared... i want to bounce ideas off him and talk to him about where life's headed and meant to be..... he was really good at feedback and looking at pro's and cons and he was especially good at making me laugh.... and bringing me up..... i miss entertaining someone like that, and i really, really miss sharing those moments... the ones that don't seem to matter to everyone else.... to you it's the funniest, weirdest, or whatever moment... those always make me smile...... especially when i was the one who goofed up.... :P i miss smiling at those memories when no one else is around. i miss so many things... why am i living in the past..... trying to turn toward the future, hoping and praying that he's somewhere in it..... but trying to move on.... i hesitate to let go of such people..... people i really loved and cared for and people who wanted to know me..... ok i gotta study, more reflection later tonight;) hey, how come no one leaves a message?!?!? even if i dont' know you, ya gotta give props... hehehe, say something silly, sing a song.... the world is yours to give.....
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