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Sunday, December 01, 2002
i can't believe it's december
ok, so maybe you've figured out that i don't write everything in here (duh) i can't. it's just not... i dunno, it just feels wrong. i don't know how to express things sometimes so i keep them inside waiting for ... something. so far i've done too much traveling.
wed (la to sf)
thurs (sf to sacaramento and back)
fri (sf to reno)
sat (reno to sf)
sun (sf to la)
me thinks i shoulda stayed in la, but too late for such moot thoughts. didn't get to see any friends. but i did get a chance to eat some really great filipino food! i did see a little snow in tahoe, but it was ever so little. did i mention I CAN'T WAIT TO SNOWBOARD. other random factoid: i am currently in the process of applying to the jet program to teach english in japan for a year. i don't know how qualified i am in comparison to others, but i remain hopeful. i dont' know what to do. this is a step forward i am willing to explore. i don't know what's wrong with me. i dont' want to go home yet. i don't want to uproot again. things seem to affect me more than they should. forever lost in this, it's not bliss, but a puddle with a layer of oil, i can see, but which one is right, here, is it now... i can't think, yet i think too much. it's death to my soul at times, thinking it is... just want to take those 216 numbers and figure out how to live in bliss, what a morbid thought, don't think that, i didn't say it, you didn't read this, goodnight.
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