don't ya hate it when that happens?
Monday, March 17, 2003
finals are coming!
i was so relaxed last week, but starting friday, the stress started to seep into my veins. i feel like throwing up right now. i think a swig of oj should help that. sometimes, i really fear i'm going to be diabetic. nobody really notices but me, but then again, it is my life... my hands get the shakes, i am perpetually cold, and i crave sugar a lot... a lot of things make me want to puke... or maybe it's just the way i feel right now. so.... i havne't written in about a week. most of the week was school... ji won came on tuesday, my haven of comfort. she left for sd on friday while i had jackie's rehearsal where all we did was plan the next three weeks... i could have been spending time with my dear friend instead. actually thursday was a really bad day for me. i felt liable to lash out at anyone or thing.... i was 30 min late for my last beatles class, i was an hour late for my bodyrhythm rehearsal (i really need to practice that one... also the piece IS NOT going as great as last years) and on the way down, i remembered that i had indeed missed a dr's appointment that day. i felt like shit and i had rehearsals til 10:30pm. did i mention i hurt my leg pretty bad the sat before in a few games of basketball? it was so bad i couldn't bear to go down steps on that foot, but i didn't want to be a weenie so i sucked it up and tried to take care of myself.... then on sat i messed it up again! i missed a step at shani's bday at dublins and miyagi's... that one unexpected step forced me to use my left quad which then collapsed under my weight effectively straining my quad even more. hahahhaa, there's more to this day... i'm driving down sunset in the rain, there's like 3 accidents... one comes up so unexpectedly that a whole bunch of us drivers have to break suddenly.... the sushi i was eating while driving fell from my lap to my calf where i artfully rescued the tray against my leg... the sweet, sticky sauce layered my leg, part of the hem of my skirt, and ginger and wasabi littered my simpsons floormat. and this essay is all over the place.... friday night i was feeling like shit too... so i decided to not study (do we ever learn?) and go with lynnimal to the midnight showing of mouin rouge where we dressed up in matching, revealing outfits... and a whole lot of accessories.... fun fun fun... ::sigh:: yesterday and today elaine and i went to barnes and noble and borders to study, respectively. today i made a weird version of chinese chicken salad... and i am so moody... one of those things that only a few people can truly break. right now the only thing breaking is my heart. how cheesy. cheesy like those nachos at basketball games or like when people say fo sheezy or like stretchy part of those really tantalizing pizzas' cheese in the commercials that romanced me into my pizza obssession as a young kid.
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