don't ya hate it when that happens?
Friday, April 18, 2003
yawn... hmmmmm...
you must've figured out that i don't record everything in here... i know people are reading this and i know there are things that i am too ashamed to say... ::sigh:: free and not... always this... this... irony. lately i have been in a slump. trying to be happy. pushing for what i know is there. hmmm, been so busy.. yet it seems i shouldn't be. i just finished wacsmash.. my feelings on that? it was so tough.. people say these are "easy" things or classes, but they are not... some things you cannot fake... and some you can.... :) i had a hard time with princess and a few others... but it's finally over... even with those hardships i shall miss that part of me more than i had imagined.
belly dancing is going really well... so great... and so fun.. i sweat all the time in these classes. it's so exciting, i just can't get enough of it. :) i think i've found my passions... cultural dances and ... hahaha. i think i want to be a scientist. or a vet. or.. or .. i don't know.. but i'll push and strive and hopefully i'll find each and every one of you along the way so that we can spend time. (tap is the only other dance class, but it's.. ok :) i'm going to try out for an mfa show/ group and see what i can get done. it should be a lot of fun. i've also finally picked out my play that i'm going to be working on with my partner for theater 20. i am so freakin excited! it's sam shepard's Fool For Love it's kinda exciting... a little on the taboo side, but i like! i like! it's very raw though.. not much character hidden from the audience.. as my ta put it, what you see is what you get! i so can't wait!
hmmm, other things are going ok.. the only other thing that surfaced was my roommate drama which isn't so bad. i'm yearning for a partner in crime right now.. but i wont' settle.. never settle. and i've got to quit with this chasing guys crap. i can't do it anymore. i feel like they don't want me so i'll just sit here. doo doo doo.. i never make the right decisions anyways. i wish it was different with my sillyhead, but who knows what's going to happen... ::le sigh:: i don't really talk to any of my ex's... mr. asshole was never on the same communication level as me and mr sillyhead has his own life, past and present, to deal with for the moment. when will it be my turn? shall i sit patiently and ::sigh:: while i watch time crawl down the road? direction is all i need and i'm going to find it somehow. i'm determined.
final (last minute) thoughts
just stuff floating around in my head...
gotta get rid of the snake... maybe i will keep the turtles, but i have to get them a better home... maybe when i get home i'll get a dog and/ or bearded dragon :)
mmmm, flowers are so pretty! especially the really grrrreat smellling kind. ...coachella... don't know what to expect.... wish mr krispy would make my life easier and just eat the freakin rat! i suspect it's too small... i need to exchange those speakers to fry's.... need to buy my acting book by mel shapiro ... need to borrow someone's tap book to write my report... need to watch those two videos... need to spend time with all my la friends before i leave... dont' know when or how often i'll be around... and finally...
INGHA GOT INTO UCSD!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!! :)
ok me sleepy.. do this latersssssssss:) buh byes whoever you may be!0 Comments:
