don't ya hate it when that happens?
Thursday, September 04, 2003
the usual
i've always wanted to walk into a place and just like they do in grease or the archies.. say "the usual" hehe, kinda cool, ya know.. like you're already on the inside track to life.
so before i sleep tonight i have a few thoughts i'd like to let go of. one of them is love. and all things related.. i get scared now.. i'm afraid b/c i know who i am and i know what i'm getting into. i'm sure the risk is worth it, but at times, those excruciatingly painful times, you could just beat yourself regretting everything. looking back.. i know, but will that stop me from making the same mistake? i fall to deep, fall too far.. if i let myself. but on the other side, how do you fall in love if you don't let yourself go, let your walls collapse for this one person... erg, vulnerability.. i'm too sensitive.. i hate it.. i'm trying to be strong...
i want people to read this, but sometimes i wonder how many are just stalkers.. do you know the real me? or just this gibberish jabber?
i'm in a pensive, dangerously mean mood tonight..
good night...
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