don't ya hate it when that happens?
Thursday, November 06, 2003
weird
soo... i've been feeling really moody ... ups and downs. i dont' know why. bad sleeping habits? (i've slept all day with breaks to help my dad or eat) maybe it's the lack of exercise or my semi interest in food. or maybe it's that job thing. hmmm, i've really gotta snap out of it. what i really hate is me losing my patience to my mom's usual nagging. i try, i really do, but there's this point where i just can't take it. le sigh...
my mother said something about how i may be smarter than her... and it hurts when she says that. it's just the american born thing.. she's been here since she was 13, but she somehow shielded herself to not totally understand american culture. i listen to my dad talk on the phone to sbc and i cringe a little thinking about how the person on the other end might perceive him to be dumb, but he really isn't... it's just the way parents are. my father is an extremely skilled engineer that has 20+ years of experience under his belt. and i am really really cringing now thinking about how it's going to be when i get older... and more ignorant of the youth culture/ media/ etc.... some days i have my spurts of energy and i start planning goals, learning at the library and whatever. now stepping away from the me i am feeling right now... i look so downright silly... all depressed and mopey. i need to get out of the house. running tomorrow it is...
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