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Thursday, December 18, 2003
jibber jabber
i cant believe how soon christmas is going to be. i have so much to be thankful for. i got this job at the ucla job fair, i have such great friends (you know who you are!), and i get about 2 weeks paid holidays... i just feel so lucky. at work i actually do something that requires more thinking than at my other jobs. (play with some html templates, etc for internal website maintenance, etc...)
tonight i'm going to take korina to one of my favorite restaurants, marnee thai. Then tomorrow we're off to go shopping for the holidays. a few suggestions were gilroy outlets and union square. we'll see.
i dont know if she reads this, but ji won's birthday was on the 8th of december. i think it went really well, she really deserves it.
i really dont' know what i'm doing for the holidays. again, my mom's side of the family will be celebrating christmas this sat at my lolo's house in sacramento. i dont' know what's going on for the actual days. i have so many friends doing random things for new years:
hmmm, i could just go and hop around the groups, but it just sounds like so much trouble and lotsa drunk people. i've been to vegas for new years a lot, but usually with family and we're usually watching a show of some sort all dressed up in our hotel. it's not as crazy, but it's nice and a chance to be elegant, etc.. i don't really get many chances to dress up anymore.
i really feel like this is going to be one of those holidays that just sneaks up on you and is over before you know it. i am trying really hard to get into the holiday spirit. its' just that time of year where the tiny absence in your life starts to grow stronger. logically i know this shouldn't matter, but inside we all have that longing... which would probably make me think of scott, but i won't anymore. when i was a little girl i used to see situations and think "that'll never happen to me" or even when it did happen i'd always swear "never again." i am getting better at some things, but some things i'm starting to get used to, like shutting people out, is sort of mean and tiresome... this whole not getting attached business... let me tell you (whoever you are, you lucky reader you!) that it is a whole lot easier to not get attached to somebody if you have the opportunity to juggle two somebodys. (hey! i'm making up new words by accident like shmall = short+small) someone told me that it's mean to the both parties, but i think as long as everybody knows what they're getting into... let the games begin! I actually don't think things are that clear cut for me right now, more like a salad of sorts... all these ingredients tossed together. someone more aggressive would be nice, but too aggressive is like putting a little too much dressing into the salad, then the salad's just not good for your health anymore. hehehe.
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