don't ya hate it when that happens?
Friday, May 14, 2004
whoa! it's been so long blogger's got a freakin new look to it! it feels wrong though.. kind of like it's a toy for people who don't know how to do shit. (excuse the french it's been a tough week)
so everyone want's to know what's up with the hiatus? well.. part of it was i was dating two guys at once and they both pissed the hell outta me. and i know they read this. but i think i'm just about over it. then a friend started to like me and i had all these thoughts and i just didn't want to open up to anyone. i hate being judged. i hate sharing without people wanting to share with me... it's like my life becomes fodder for their... everything.. ok. maybe i'm not making sense. it's just too hard to describe what i feel and not totally say it outright..
another reason was... i started dating a friend of a coworker and for a month i was just really happy... then he got an internship to hawaii and decided i'm not worth the wait... on one end i'm like "eh, we're young" on the other end i'm like the fucker's picking the possibility of hooking up with hawaiian girls over something that could be better in the long run (he's not going to be gone that long). so sure every guy out there is like YEAH! but to you i say stick it. ;) i don't put up with shit anymore. nice huh. i dont' know what happened to me. i just don't.
someone i thought i loved got back with his ex after months of people saying "has he gotten with his ex yet?" so everyone was right. people think i was used and thrown away like a kleenex. i really don't know how to feel about that one. or this most recent one. le sigh. lately i've also been playing tons of sports.
this monday is my last painting class and i've got to get a portrait done...
every wednesday is lockheed's basketball tournament
every thursday is lockheed's softball tournament and then afterwards i drive up to union city/hayward to play more basketball
i want to get better.. i also want to pick up soccer this summer.. the ultimate would be ice hockey though... oooo, that would be so sweet! the only thing holding me back is the money part...
i'm going on a european cruise this summer... i might go to hawaii with my friend from ny. or maybe i should go visit ny again and we can do some cruise leaving from florida..
fyi.. i'll be in la the weekend of june 5th for minh's bro's wedding...
TONIGHT! i'm heading to sno-drift for some clubbing... (sign up at sno-drift.com -> events ->may 14th ->sign up on the guest list) so show up way before 11pm. i'll be there..
oh yeah... hehehe.. i just broke up with eli last night.. so i'm back on the market... torn.. but for the better. thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday! i should have done a post... they got me a cake at work and sang happy birthday as i sank into the person next to me.. (stuff like this makes me shy) and one of my favorite coworkers that sits next to me got me a pot of miniature yellow roses, a really funny card, and my favorite donut and coffee.. too bad he's too old for me :) i felt so special on tuesday.. people were calling me and emailing me and i actually got presents through the mail! crazy! corazon, shani g, shani t, lynn, minh, auntie agim, korina, john, keo, amelia, katsu, jiwon, and tons of coworkers.. just stopping by to say hello....
oh yeah.. i was debating whether eli should take me out for my birthday or not.. i'm fine when he's not here but it's so hard to deal when he's next to me... so i'd rather not be in that situation. i wont' get into the details of the whole big ordeal, lets' just skip to the ignorant bliss part and say i had a great meal and a really good key lime martini :) we went to kuletos and mccormicks at ghiradelli's square.
i'm still at work.. time for lunch! ;) (does this post make up for it?)
matt, how you doing with ms australia?
mike, how's caroline?
toby, how's you know who?
brian, how's kelly?
miss you ants!
shout out to all the shani's! hahahahha, i'm a dork ;)
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