don't ya hate it when that happens?
Saturday, July 03, 2004
But i realize that even though i don't really have a challenging job.. i can still get swamped. especially when there's a deadline. almost every day this past week i wasn't at my desk. meetings this, help that.. blah blah. :) i kinda like the chaos b/c it brings a change but i know it can't be like this all the time. i've also been talking to my mgr a lot. she and i agree that it's time to move on. i'll most likely end up as a systems engineer and maybe move on to mechanical engineering later on. that's the plan so far and i have lotsa room to change my options..
i play basketball tuesdays and thursdays at lunch with men who are my father's age. they have this "lunch time crew" i never thought about it until i came to this workplace, but there are so many potential areas to harbor gender issues.., at least i didn't think it would happen so outwardly to me.. from basketball to work, it somehow lends its salty edge to everything in every facet. i do admit, in some situations i am being completely parnoid, but in most instances, you can taste its presence. i almost didn't have a basketball team for next season, but some people from my old team are now willing to let me on their team despite what the newer members say. that makes me like steve and greg even more :) i heard from another team that they might let a girl play on their team occasionally, probably only when their team plays mines...
work is a little stickier. for the past couple months i've been feeling that my task leader has been giving my male coworker more creative, yet still boring, work while i have been left to hold the fort and maintain the steady, boring yet just as important work. he even made me in charge of the minutes for all the meetings, even the ones i didnt attend! gene and i had a system worked out where whoever went to that meeting does those minutes, but my lead didn't agree... argh.. and when i tried asking my lead for more responsibility and projects, he sort of made up work and just statused it on a chart at our next meeting. um, yeah. time to move on.
there is also another coworker who has been here at this workplace for 8 years, but has transferred into my group just a few months ago. the gender thing is really obvious with him only this time it's tied into his culture. where he comes from, women are subservient and men are always right. imagine being a much younger woman trying to train someone who never admits he's wrong and forgets everything immediately after he's learned it. imagine trying to train someone who has to write notes out and take screen captures on how to plug in a usb cord and download a sound file off a digital recorder... i was so frustrated at work for a long time... then there were a few, what he called, "instances" like the time i asked him not to sit so close to me when i was reviewing his work(b/c he had salad breath) and he got all paranoid thinking i was accusing him of sexual harrassment. i had to actually explain the salad part to him so he would get it (he really didn't) then there was the time he had my coworker next to me talk to me about my swearing. i only say shit for the most part and everyone in my dept swears... a lot. but me being the only girl.. fuckin a. heheheh.. anyhow, it's 1:43 on a sat of a 3 day weekend and i'm still home. :) have a great 4th!
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