don't ya hate it when that happens?
Sunday, August 22, 2004
so i slept the day away today. eek.. i haven't done that for the longest time. woke up at susans' still and left at 7:30 in the morning for my place. woke up for a lunch break and then went to bed again. woke up just in time to make it to dinner in millbrae.
i guess i'm just setting up the scene for my thoughts.. i'm hanging out with matt. we end up at cliff's house and we're shooting the ish, talking about "the good ol days" when something matt says rings in my ears... "notice a pattern" [about the guys i've dated] that they always seem to end bad.
frickin.. he's right for the most part. at least about the guys i really cared about.. for some reason.. i dunno.. i mean i've been in love.. that's a whole other path to talk about, but i dont' think i've ever had someone do those things that people do when they really care for eachother.... make sacrifices... i dont' want to start listing off things, b/c then people would say in their heads "i've done that, or that doesn't happen in real life" i dont' know what to expect. sometimes i'm expecting too much.. others say i dont' expect enough. i dont' want to belittle the things people have done for me, mixed tapes/cd's, necklaces, driving long distances to see me... material things aside... does this paragraph even make sense? it's like i can't really say what i want to b/c i might offend someone. or let someone into my head without catching a glimpse inside theirs.
anyhoo.. last night i was explaining to someone how a guy had sorta stood me up for lunch the day before... then how that guy had showed up friday when i was busy playing some pick up and i kinda brushed him off. my friend had a good point about what i should and should not put up with... and he's right....
in other news, cliffords dog hilga wouldnt stop slobbering on my hand and she shed all over my clothes. but she's so cute, so i guess that made it ok? hehehe.. oh and humperdink bought 500 crickets online.. i'm thinking about doing that too.. its' only 20.. and churro is definitely worth it, especially now that i have a job.. i'm also going to have to start making him that frozen iguana salad stuff... hehehe :)
i read rich's blog about how sue made a skit for one of her brokenhearted friends.. he's right.. i would have never known what a caring person she is by just that one day we were in the city. sooo sweet. and now she's closer to me, mwahahahaha.. j/p ;P
haven't seen korina for some time, i miss her! brokencandy.com's got some really great blogs up on "guess this nut" [deeeez nutz!] and hawaii.. monteez has a blog about those free ipods vs aol...
my parent's 25th anniversary is coming up this wednesday. and someone, please help me find a better job..
and i want to thank my father for always giving me a nice massage every time i go home. i swear my mom tries to be bad on purpose so she doesn't have to give one in return... hehehehe..
i'm sad.. i bought an ipod two months ago for the same price the new ones are at now... (both versions have 40G but the new one is slightly smaller and has the innovative click wheel..) but on the bright side, i used my ipod to store my digital pictures during my european vacation... dun dun dun.. ya win some, ya lose some.. :)
2 Comments:
all past relationships have bad endings-- otherwise you'd still be in them, right? the only thing we can do is live and learn... and once you recognize the pattern, you have the mechanism to break it. it's hard because we can't help who we're attracted to... but we also have to figure out how to get what's best for us. it's a really difficult thing, as you well know, and we have to go through a lot of chaff to get the best wheat. (if you recognize that reference, then mad props to you! heh)
sometimes you recognize the stuff that can get you into trouble, but sometimes it's so hard to resist! but i'll have to for now... sorry hyde from that 70's show! your bad boy character wont' cut it... or will it? hehehehe
