don't ya hate it when that happens?

Thursday, April 07, 2005

i can't help it. i've been really down as of lates. i think i just need to cut down on a few activities and take some time to relax. everytime i have a weekend or free time it's "time to do homework" it's funny, there are so many activities i need to cut out, but there's so many i have yet to fit in. i totally want to take some dance classes, cultural ones like belly dance, and hiphop... and i am really dying to get into an art class. i'm thinking about just taking airbrushing at mission college if they offer it this summer. i still have all my paint too... but i can only afford one class at a time time-wise.....we'll see... boo!

i'm still a little bit down about how my friend started a basketball team and chose people "to win" i have a better chance getting on a better team than his than getting on his team and that says a lot about "friendship" i guess i just tend to give too much and expect too much. you really shouldn't expect anything i suppose.

i have another friend who's going through a lot right now. unfortunately, i make the problem worse so i can't be there in this time of need. i understand, but it hurts. i can't stand it when i can't help my friends. i can't stand it more when i'm a major cause of pain. argh.

on the bright side we won two games yesterday out of our four in volleyball, our first wins! i did get a little frustrated, but nothing i can't iron out. watching may and her team move was pretty exciting though! everything was so DYNAMIC.

lots of things have been frustrating me lately and i can't seem to find a haven. some of my friends are acting a little off lately too, but i can't quite put my finger on it. i miss some of my far away friends too. argh. i guess what's first is first. catch up on some zzZZzz's and try to straighten out everything. i can't even begin to think about guys right now. i just feel like i dont' want to settle, but i'm trying really hard not to have unattainable expectations. i just want a connection more than anything else. i had it once, but i suppose the only way to get it is to build it?!? i dunno, you tell me. maybe i'm just afraid. they either like me too too much or not enough.

on another bright note, i might go snowboard this sat, my tulips are blooming, my herbs are growing, and my beardie, Churro is doing just fine, that little rascal. :)

Gene bought a house, nicole's doing great at work, and jimmie sprained his ankle.

hehe, on a totally random note,

i actually said the words today, "i guess being tired is my thing. if i was be a care bear, i'd be tired bear"
i also said a loud for the first time (and here it shall echo into the vast bellows of the bottomless internet) that i used to like it when i was a kid and i'd be making cake or brownies - that part when you add the oil to the mix and it creates a hole in the powder that you can peer into. um, yeah...
yesterday one of my favorite coworkers, Dave said "two snaps up and a circle!" a la In Living Color!!! Gene keeps saying "How old are we?"
i thought of the weirdest thing. i was leaving my 2 hour physics lecture today and i suddenly thought of that mean website where this guy makes fun of children's art and it made me hella laugh! does anyone know what i'm talking about?
i ran into two familiar faces today in B151, elston and phil morelo!
i mentioned to my lead that it's funny how i don't even know what i'll be doing and he said he doesn't even know what he's supposed to be doing (for our project)
my room is a f-ing mess. i have clothes all over the bed (i can only sleep on one side) and i have crap all over the floor. no not poop you sick-os, just junk.
this is the last note, i really really want to go to the comic convention this year dressed up as something / someone really cool. does anyone have any ideas?!?! i was thinking either angela from spawn, liliandra from the shiar galaxy (how do i make that costume?!), jean grey (red wig), or i would have to default to either psylocke or jubilee. argh. i need better ideas!

ah 12:43 AM 5 comments

5 Comments:

I have a guy friend you should meet. He's tall, good looking, athletic and very very kind.

By Anonymous, at 6:16 PM

sorry TC,no recent break ups for me...

By Anonymous, at 10:22 PM

Silly rabbit, of course the website is Maddox.

http://maddox.xmission.com/

Or the section you want specifically:

http://maddox.xmission.com/c.cgi?u=irule

How ya been, by the way

By Anonymous, at 12:44 AM

thanks for the site robbie. i had a ball with your family in vegas. they're so much fun! and walking around til the wee hours with chris and minh.. hahaha.. but anyhoo, i've made up with both of my old roommates (made up, not out) i'm doing pretty good... as good as good can be, how're you?

By ah, at 1:02 AM

i totally forgot, i have this binder full of comic cards. we should pore over those to choose our costumes. -Tina

By Anonymous, at 2:17 PM