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Sunday, May 22, 2005
Sex in the Valley
last sat i attended the habitat for humanity auction where people bid on items wayyy out of my price range. i think they even had one of those teeeny tiny lil motorcycles going for $500. supposedly it was worth $900. what a steal. hahaha.
i was invited by a guy i just really recently started dating. he's really awesome, but for some reason i'm still wary of the dating game. don't get me wrong, i like the early drama of getting to know someone, etc.. but i'm tired of all the other stuff that comes with it. should i call him.. what am i supposed to expect, where is this leading, ... wait, why do i care so much again? hahaha, sometimes it's so easy to not care, other times i find myself falling ... and things catch me off guard. things i want to say, but won't b/c i'm afraid of the way it sounds.. or maybe the other person might not understand.. who knows.. i really just want someone i can say anything to, someone i can basically be free with.. but forreals.. i don't think anyone can handle my shit. a lot of the times, i just don't have to heart to say stuff.. or ... i just don't want to be judged by what i really think or feel or felt or love.. that's when i just want to throw in the towel and give up.
but other than all that banter, this guy seems really genuine, affectionate, attentive, smart and for some reason.. he seems to party like no other person i know. hahahaha. if he ever reads this, yeah i'm talking about you! every weekend is a party, gala, club, etc... wowzers, i don't think i can keep up, baby boy, make me lose my breath.... and if you don't catch that transition, poo on you! :)
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