don't ya hate it when that happens?
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
more
i also missed a mission meeting on monday that was planned last wednesday... way to let people down...
anyways, moving on... yesterday since i was stressed i decided to run the workout that worked best so far... run the stadium steps and then run two miles on the track, warm up and cool down not included... it went nice again so i gave it a whirl again today except earlier so it wouldn't be as cold... i wasn't feeling as grand today so i decided to just run a mile but after that mile it felt like i had this groove so i kept at it and the next mile was easier than the first..... i've been doing stomach exercises a lot lately and not too heavy on weights... hmmm weigh for today? 138 lbs, with running shoes( basketball shoes weigh more :) anyhoo.. i am pooped and i have too much to think about so i'm going to sleep on it. good night....
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
disclaimer:
in case you didn't notice, i'm in a bad mood right now. i got in trouble at work on monday.. sat in traffic for an hour for nothing... forgot to turn in a paper today... and i'm the assisstant to the assistant of the fashion institute's CFO... which basically means i do a lot.. and i mean a LOT of grudge work. eh.. ::sigh:: i need to go running... or lift weights... late.
i fucking hate princesses!!!!
Coachella
so it turns out that uncle buddy has these vip passes to coachella that he got me and ingha... they were really nice b/c the shade was better.. the drinks were better, not to mention we got 3 free for each ticket... but it's not really backstage... on the shameful celebrity note.. i saw tommy lee, kelly osbourne and woody harrelson... ingha's friends saw cameron diaz and jared leto (my high school crush) ... there were a few others.. but i didn't really know names... on sat i caught nerd... missed blur, queens of the stone age, and the hives... saw ben harper and BEASTIE BOYS... i been waiting about 9 years to see them... shit. i was so excited.. being alone didn't really mean anything to me... one guy in the vip room let his friend pull down his shorts ... he wasn't wearing any underwear... most of the time i just lay in the shade... on sat i met these two guys who bought me and ingha drinks and dinner... i met quite a few interesting people/ couples in the hotel's hot tub on saturday night... um yeah... um, yeahhhh.... on sunday i met a woman whose husband is a manager for producers- finding them bands.... she, tina, had the cutest baby with her (magnolia) magnolia was only 15 monthsand she had the cutest curls... and was featured in a disney catalogue once.. hehehhehe.. me like bebes...and we both started talking to this one lady who ran marathons... we traded stealing stories- you know.. the stories that kept us from stealing ever again... on the way to the car some guy got kicked out for smoking pot right before red hot chili peppers... then one car next to ours needed help trying to get to their trunk which was stuck... eh.. i had nothing else to do while i waited for ingha and her friends.... strange sunday i caught a bit more... it's so draining being in the sun standing and all... we started with mars volta, sonic youth, jack johnson, iggy and the stooges, and then i ended with RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS.. another band i had been dying to see... (excited sonnyboy? i know you're reading this and you're going to recite this back to me on my birthday when you see me!) well i was hella excited!!!! bands i had been dying to see for years... well.. i wasn't as into sonic youth and mars volta.. but hey.. whateva, ya know!!! i wanted to head out to see fisherspooner, but some foreign student misinformed me and told me it was over.... on the way out... i took a picture of this contraption that was a percussion sculpture.. it was so tight i had to take a picture.... my thoughts are all jumbled up... the hotel was great, highly recommended.. i did feel a little bit out of place.... in the group that is... they would never listen to me so i just kept to myself in the end.... HOW SAD! maybe amelia was right when she told me over winter break that i don't understand people.... it was such a mean thing to say, but i just can't stand it when people always want things their way... it gets frustrating... takes me back to the dorms when i would wait for people waiting for people just to eat.... and i wanted to say fuck this.. i have to eat, i'm dying!!! i shoulda but i'm sure there's a next time to speak up for myself.. there were so many times i felt tension.. like when i said we should stick to the directions and they instead pulled into a longer taking route..... or when i showed someone how to use the panic button to find the car and they were so exhausted that they were rude.... sometimes... i really am gonna punch someone in the face... i just wonder who it'll be..
Thursday, April 24, 2003
just an ordinary day
so i'm finally starting to enjoy each day again... almost free of worries. i spent the night at jiwon's and i didn't even go to work the next day. for some reason we didn't even leave for her "place" until like 4 something... doo doo doo... then we had to move the cars for street cleaning at noon... and then we went on a 99cent store rampage!!!! man oh man! i bought so much useless/ful stuff like a teeny tiny folding seat and orbit gum packs.... i also gave roberto a ride to his clinic to try and pass his physical... i know he's going to read this.... JUST GET GLASSES! hehehe.
so i get home, rehearse some lines for a class with my partner and then go to unicamp.. then onto a unicamp social at in n out (my first official meal of the day- how sad!) and finally boba... here i am now....
highs
hehehehehhe, this man is asking me if i like to hang out with guys... "you know... like at your home...." well, i place my hand on the shoulder of his silver lame jacket inside this 99cent store and i say "uh, not really..." so he give me his card... to "think about it and leave him a message b/c he gets a lot of business..." his card claims he's a rapper, home owner, and a gynecologist!!!!! talk about random. (or we can talk about something else nahmasayn!...) but when i get a chance, i'll scan the card and blur out his name... hehehe. funny funny stuff...
and last but not least... i am so ashamed and yet simultaneously proud to say i have been to 3 of the same chain of 99 cent stores today with jiwon... hehehe evil laugh.... oh yeah! and last night we cleaned out the 4 for $1 easter cart.... doo doo doo..... yes that is a halo over my shoulder... no roberto it's NOT associated with your obssessive video game! ;) anyhoo, i have to meet ruby early tm morn to practice and teach her some tap moves she missed... hope things are well with those i care about.... toodles sugah!
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
monday bloody monday
work... blah blah blah. not so bad... got a great massage from the master, miss vicki, in the flesh... hahaha what am i talking about?!?!?
i came back to see the glenrock guys rock an im basketball team that was actually better than them... i came when we were down by one and we ended up winning by a lot. the other team was actually laughing b/c we had no subs... doo doo doo... on the drive home minh accidentally spilled gatorade on the shirt and tie i was wearing :(...
i came home... ate a cookies and cream promax bar (mmrmmmmmrmrrrrmmmgobblegobble) then decided to work out at wooden... i heard from jason who just left wooden that lindsey was going to be there on the court with her "posse" so... instead of basketball i decided to go running.... you know, pump it out. :) stomp my stress away... two warm up laps, ran the stadium steps, ran two miles, and then ran a cool down lap... it felt soooo good... in the two mile when i was rounding out the 5th lap... it just felt right... like the pace and everything felt smooth likei could do this for a long time.. so i tried to pick it up a bit... strided the 7th gradually building up to all out in the 8th... ::sigh:: i miss the competitiveness and especially the practices. hahahaha, those days were so fun! i'll have to start up in sf again once i'm completely out of school. for now this will do. hmm... weight room wasn't too crowded..
this note is just for me (30 crunches each, front and both sides with that ab roller thing, a few ab excercises- i especially like the one where you sit down, hold up your feet and turn your body to each side as if you're trying to look over your shoulder... i but i don't look or else i get dizzy... hehehe- um... the two leg machines, various bench presses, pull ups, and a few random stuff... oh yeah... and lunges.. )
i am so sore! i thought i was sore yesterday from sunday's basketball game (where my team never passed me the ball) and a little weights and raquetball...
i got back pretty late, talked to ji on the phone and ate dinner.. nothing really...
there is this guy though... who i thought liked me.. but i don't think he does anymore.. hehehe, i wonder what i did. maybe i should start wearing anti perspirant ;) he actually went out on a date once like 2 years ago with that ice queen (b****) lindsey... i had to play man against her sunday and she kinda dogged me. eh. whatever, right? competition on and off the court. i like to keep it only on the court, but if she wants to play that way.... i heard she doesn't even get along with her roommate brian. so it's not just me...
Tuesdays with Arlene
that was a reference to Tuesdays With Morrie did i even spell that right? i got the book from betty for my birthday.. it's cool, but not one of my favorites. i should sign the inside cover and pass it on to start a chain.
i slept at 3 am last night and woke up at 8am... for no apparent reason. so i ate cereal while watching tv... I FORGOT HOW HOT DEAN CAIN IS!!!!!! mary kept saying later on, "he's old! he' s like 39." well honey, he can "39" me any day. mwahahahah. huh? oh evil laugh, sorry. ;) ok, ok, that is a bit older than me. ::le sigh:: i'll keep dreaming for my superman. and dreaming..... and dreaming... and dreaming.....
raqs sharqi belly dancing was great as usual. i'm not too shy to start in the front row in her class and wear my sports bra, YOW BEBE! just trying to be sexy in a class of 30 girls and 1 guy. hahahahhaa, hopefully we all have 6 packs when we're done with this class.
tap. i love tap. dally. i hate dally. lynn dally is my pseudo famous tap instructor at ucla... she is also unknowingly under the alias "TAP NAZI" she hates me, i don't love her all that much... so this is my 3rd quarter with her and it sucks. i kind of dread her class, but i love the tapping and i actually improve by making it a part of my weekly regime so.. here i am....
theater 20... i almost fell asleep in the play proposals. she really should have done this by appointment to save time. i didn't mean to. i even read my whole play and whatever. i should have tried memorizing it while i was there. i feel kinda like the class is lacking as of late... people haven't been as motivated... we haven't even started the journal thing and it's 4th week. i'll try to remember to email on wednesday night.
i stopped by wooden to see the girls team scrimmaging blacktop style... not bad, but not that great either. but it was better than watching the B or C court. sorry fellas.
at home i just fell asleep. 4-6pm gone in a blink. i hope i can sleep tonight.
feelings, thoughts, and my surroundings
today there were a whole bunch of thoughts coursing through my head.. i think i forgot them all.... dean cain i could never forget though... ((blush blush)) i remember walking through the cutting wind and seeing the book fair's booths being set up. i'm so sad i won't be here this weekend to see it. i'll be at inland empire to see coachella with my sister and her friends. i would stay, but i have been dying to see beastie boys since 1994 when i became obssessed with them... (shhhh!) plus the chance to hang out with my sister in our limited time before she moves away to san diego. i remember falling in and out of conciousness as i struggled to stay awake in class... i can do the buffalo time step real well, but not the pull back in shave and a haircut-two bits... i'd like to try the dating field again... i don't really know where to begin. i only dated him for a short period, but it took me the whole year to finally not hold myself back... he'll always be in my heart... hehehehe, maybe i really should try one of those dating shows like mtv's taildating. ooooo hahahhaa, i dunno about the hot tub, but i know you're not pressured to do all that promiscuous crap.
Monday, April 21, 2003
HAPPY EASTER
soooo
i've finally officially lost a blog and here i am still doing it the not so safe way.. oh well!
friday
got some school stuff done ((cough)) photocopy a book ((cough)). crashed a ucla- usc grad student bar event at highlands (hehehe) with mary and elaine's friends. it was really fun... great atmosphere, music, mary's cosmo was good, and nothing.... NOTHING beats free.... mary has the magic touch. she even got our parking validated somehow...
sat
fry's to return speakers and buy a smart media card, ralphs to pick up pictures, bluewave carwash, longs to buy water, best buy to buy speakers, petstore to learn about bearded dragons and red eared sliders and return the small rat that mr krispy didn't eat..., finally i met up with mary and elaine for lollicup boba and walked around rite aid doing nothing really (what i love to do...!) btw, i have free illegal sized baby turtles that i am trying to get rid of.... if anyone wants them or knows someone who does... email me! guitarte@ucla.edu
sun
church at the ucc- i arrived early to ensure i had a seat... it was so packed! played ball with a random 10 and then raquetball with jason, giants vs dodgers... don't remind me... :( at least bond's homer was exciting and i found my bruincard that i needed on sat night in the sweater i was wearing..... also i had a blast playing with the little girl sitting in front of me, Sierra.
highlights!!
*at rite aid we ran across "finger protection" that looked like tiny condoms... hehehhe we slipped a 30 pack into the appropriate prophylactic section.... hopefully someone has as great a laugh as we did....
*i wanted to buy ramen that was on sale... but we were 7 past midnight and the freakin computer wouldn't recognize it!!! 7 minutes!
*turns out the speakers i bought at fry's weren't broken.. there's just this weird phenomenon where only one side will play... my cd player plays both sides while my computer and tape recorder plays only the left side.... does anybody know?!?!
* the petco people let me hold the bearded dragon that they have one sale for .... dun dun DUN $149!!!!! also, the person helping me got his own 4 beardies for $60 each from Slash of Guns n Roses!!!!! yeah, i was floored by that one too. i'm serious! hehehe..
*this latino guy sitting behind me saw this girl walking up the stairs with a churro and he said out loud, but so that she couldn't hear.. "hey baby i got your churro right here" so i turned around and gave him an ewwww face... and everyone started laughing...
*instead of buying random junk food to eat i passed the time with sunflower seeds... they really keep you busy... makes me feel like a hamster... hehehehe..
*the pictures at ralphs ended up really nice... i'll have to scan them...
new pictures on the website!
Friday, April 18, 2003
yawn... hmmmmm...
you must've figured out that i don't record everything in here... i know people are reading this and i know there are things that i am too ashamed to say... ::sigh:: free and not... always this... this... irony. lately i have been in a slump. trying to be happy. pushing for what i know is there. hmmm, been so busy.. yet it seems i shouldn't be. i just finished wacsmash.. my feelings on that? it was so tough.. people say these are "easy" things or classes, but they are not... some things you cannot fake... and some you can.... :) i had a hard time with princess and a few others... but it's finally over... even with those hardships i shall miss that part of me more than i had imagined.
belly dancing is going really well... so great... and so fun.. i sweat all the time in these classes. it's so exciting, i just can't get enough of it. :) i think i've found my passions... cultural dances and ... hahaha. i think i want to be a scientist. or a vet. or.. or .. i don't know.. but i'll push and strive and hopefully i'll find each and every one of you along the way so that we can spend time. (tap is the only other dance class, but it's.. ok :) i'm going to try out for an mfa show/ group and see what i can get done. it should be a lot of fun. i've also finally picked out my play that i'm going to be working on with my partner for theater 20. i am so freakin excited! it's sam shepard's Fool For Love it's kinda exciting... a little on the taboo side, but i like! i like! it's very raw though.. not much character hidden from the audience.. as my ta put it, what you see is what you get! i so can't wait!
hmmm, other things are going ok.. the only other thing that surfaced was my roommate drama which isn't so bad. i'm yearning for a partner in crime right now.. but i wont' settle.. never settle. and i've got to quit with this chasing guys crap. i can't do it anymore. i feel like they don't want me so i'll just sit here. doo doo doo.. i never make the right decisions anyways. i wish it was different with my sillyhead, but who knows what's going to happen... ::le sigh:: i don't really talk to any of my ex's... mr. asshole was never on the same communication level as me and mr sillyhead has his own life, past and present, to deal with for the moment. when will it be my turn? shall i sit patiently and ::sigh:: while i watch time crawl down the road? direction is all i need and i'm going to find it somehow. i'm determined.
final (last minute) thoughts
just stuff floating around in my head...
gotta get rid of the snake... maybe i will keep the turtles, but i have to get them a better home... maybe when i get home i'll get a dog and/ or bearded dragon :)
mmmm, flowers are so pretty! especially the really grrrreat smellling kind. ...coachella... don't know what to expect.... wish mr krispy would make my life easier and just eat the freakin rat! i suspect it's too small... i need to exchange those speakers to fry's.... need to buy my acting book by mel shapiro ... need to borrow someone's tap book to write my report... need to watch those two videos... need to spend time with all my la friends before i leave... dont' know when or how often i'll be around... and finally...
INGHA GOT INTO UCSD!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!! :)
ok me sleepy.. do this latersssssssss:) buh byes whoever you may be!Thursday, April 17, 2003
hmmm,
been so busy lately... hopefully things'll settle down.. spent today in such a weird way... like i wasn't living it... just doing it...
work from 10 something to 2,
packed up stuff and left for woodland hills at 3:30
left for west covina at 5
got there at 7!!!!
left at 11pm...
dropped off aunt at 12
home by 1ish...
where did the time fly?
highs and lows
*got to see ariana and isiah...... they were asleep by the time they showed up
*got to see auntie beth's house.... the kids showed up 2 hours late
*i gave this lady two oranges on the way to work and she offered me some of the popcorn out of her bag. soo cute! hahahaha...
*curled my hair today.
*had a great talk with my aunt...
Sunday, April 13, 2003
so i was a little bit upset today... i don't know why... i suspect it is b/c my family couldn't be with me on such a special moment in my life.... but those that really care about me tried their best... on friday jiwon drove down early to catch my performance.. she was joined by kirk and a few friends and the two very special shanis gave me very pretty flowers... :) on saturday at the 2pm, elaine and mary were there along with my roomies who actually left early thinking they were going to beat the crowd... i spent the 3 hour break in between at the latino festival, mostly eating colombian tamales and dancing to music... at the 8pm i had lynn! the darling ran all the way from sunset rec and took a 2 hour break just to see me perform with the wac majors.. it meant to much to me... everyone's support meant a lot to me.. i worked so hard... i started out a tiny bit sad b/c my parents stayed home... it was my dad's birthday and it was too far for them to drive for such a short weekend... :( and i invited my uncle's family here in the valley but they had a busy day and he wanted to eat instead... maybe i should i have emphasized more how much this meant to me... but i wanted people to come into it on their own. i don't want pity or guilt or anything of the sort... that was probably my last "major" performance.. so sad... i'll try to find more... but we'll see.. maybe i should move to new york.. am i running away from life or am i simply starting a new one? interesting and both valid viewpoints.. ::sigh:: we just say roger dodger which was a very good movie... the only problem being... i dont' want to see it over and over again... kind of the way i feel about memento...
Saturday, April 12, 2003
opening night!
everything went really well...! and the things that seemed to go wrong were redeemed! corazon forgot her lines so she stormed out and everyone thought it was part of the act... she came back and DELIVERED! i messed up in the two dances i thought i was good in... mostly in bodythm. swing had only one minor mistake. the filipino piece went really, really well... very strange... i hope it stays well :) (knock on wood) ::sigh:: so i'm off to the matinee show. i hope more friends enjoy this show b/c it really is a great one! it doesn't even feel that long! :)
Saturday, April 05, 2003
in loving memory of cynthia "snoopy" rabuy
Rabuy remembered for service to UCLA
By Robert Salonga
DAILY BRUIN SENIOR STAFF
rsalonga@media.ucla.edu
UCLA suffered a tragic loss with the death of Cynthia Rabuy, a highly respected and revered student leader who was killed Wednesday night in a traffic collision. She was 23.
Rabuy served as both chair and vice-chair on the board of directors for the Associated Students of UCLA for the last two years. She was also the financial supports commissioner on the Undergraduate Students Association Council during the 2000-2001 term.
According to the California Highway Patrol, Rabuy's car was struck by another vehicle on the southbound 405 Freeway near the Washington Boulevard off-ramp just before midnight Wednesday.
The CHP also reported that the driver who collided with Rabuy's car was driving while intoxicated and did not make any evasive action to avoid her car. This driver, who survived the incident, was treated for his injuries and booked by the Los Angeles Police Department for vehicular manslaughter. An investigation is currently pending.
Relatives emphasized UCLA's influence on Rabuy's life, where she devoted countless hours of her time serving students.
"We want to thank everyone at UCLA for touching her life and allowing her to be in their's," said Andrew Beall, Rabuy's brother-in-law with whom she lived.
Several teary-eyed students, Rabuy's peers and colleagues, collected in front of Kerckhoff Hall around noon to inform each other of the their friend's death and to console one another.
Evan Okamura served on USAC with Rabuy in 2000-2001 as external vice president, and wanted students who did not know her to realize how important she was to campus.
"She worked her whole career helping the UCLA community on USAC and on the board of directors," he said. "She was definitely one who gave her all for UCLA and students."
Rabuy was in her fifth-year, having entered UCLA during winter 1999. She was expected to graduate at the end of this quarter after completing education and public policy minors. She already completed the coursework for her English degree last quarter.
"She was a brilliant person; she will be missed terribly," said Marlo Beall, Rabuy's sister.
Rabuy was also involved in Samahang Pilipino, with which she was practicing Wednesday night for the group's annual Pilipino Culture Night.
Berky Nelson, director for the Center for Student Programming who served as an administrative representative on USAC during Rabuy's term, described her ability to keep calm during what were often contentious council meetings.
"I can recall sitting next to her ... and admiring her even temper, listening ability and respect for her thought process once she spoke," Nelson said. "She was always dedicated to the welfare of others; she cannot be replaced."
Rabuy's ASUCLA colleagues asserted that she did the right thing, "even in difficult circumstances. Her desire to include all voices in discussion was a character trademark, said ASUCLA executive director Patricia Eastman.
"Whether she was chairing a meeting or talking one-on-one, Cindy went out of her way to be sure that all perspectives were heard and respected," she said.
Randy Hall – Rabuy's successor as board chairman – said her work was always selfless.
"She was a true leader in every sense of the word," Hall said. "Not because of any prestige she got from her work, but because she honestly enjoyed helping people."
Rabuy was supposed to attend a board of directors meeting today, and for many members her absence will set the tone for it.
"It's a wake-up call," said Reem Salahi, a student member of the board.
Rabuy was the fourth member of her family to attend UCLA. She followed sisters Marlo, a 1997 undergraduate and 2000 graduate alumna, and Carla, a 1999 undergraduate alumna.
Her campus involvement closely followed that of her aunt, Maria Rabuy Inciong, who served as USAC executive vice president in 1989-1990 and also served on the ASUCLA board of directors the following year.
Beall said the family plans on holding a memorial service for Rabuy at UCLA in the near future. In the meantime, he asked students and those who knew her to "keep her in (their) prayers and thoughts."
tuesday
i made it into the bellydancing class, tap class, theater class, didn't make it into the gamelan class... didn't know so many people were so freakin interested in indonesian instruments... was feeling down so i called up elaine... i had made devil's food cake and cornbread so we had some of that... elaine came with me to some aerobics class and then we went to westwood to get boba.. feel blessed to have friends...
wednesday
work.
didn't make it into art class
goodwill, art store
unicamp
rehearsal
end. repeat process?
thursday
9:30am bellydance
12:00pm noon show (didn't think anyone cared so i didn't email, but i will soon about the show...)
(find out snoopy was killed by a drunk driver, ... RIP)
1:00pm theater
3:00pm farmer's market (25 lbs of oranges and two tamales)
get chewed out by natalie
5:15pm dr apmnt
6:30pm bodythm rehearsal
8:30pm swing rehearsal
11:00pm cook dinner...
friday
work
rehearsal
potluck (i just read discovery magazine the whole time while they played cranium, cool people though)
made strawberries and chocolate tofu mousse
elaine and mary hang out with all of us (including lynn)
Tuesday, April 01, 2003
day 1
so yesterday i tried to wake up at 6:30 for work... not happening... hehehe, i don't know if i'm in my painting class yet... i'll find out wed.. on the way home i passed one of those psychic ladies that told me she "just wanted to talk to me" then she told me "for $5 she'd tell me something good and give me good luck" "i don't have luck in love and there's this guy i like and i've been having bad luck with him...." as tempting as that sounds... i had to decline.. i hated the feeling that she just maybe could give me good luck, but i had to turn away... money goes better elsewhere like helping people flee their countries (more on that later) rehearsals 6-7pm. i tried going to the afro cuban class, but it was too crowded so i decided my time was better spent... didn't feel like standing and chanting phrases for 3 hours... wanted to play the drum drum drum.. i went to the gym where karina let me play volleyball with her and her friends... let's just say arlo no play volleyball... i embarressed myself too much.. i served underhand, the ball actually hit my head once, and 2 or 3 times i just let the ball fall right in front of me... bad communication.... doo doo doo... but it was ... an experience... usually i play with people at the beach where it's more for fun.. and people aren't really trying to show off.. you know.. relive their "glory" years... (ahem, that'd be me and track... hehehe) anyhoo, i walked into the weight room and then walked straight out.. it was way too crowded.. does anyone notice a trend?!? (too much this, way too that...) i went running instead... ran 2 miles on the track and headed home...
